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Hey there, welcome to my blog. My name is Sian, I’m 28, I live in Scotland and I have a chronic illness called M.E.  What is M.E.? M.E stands for myalgic encephalomyelitis. It is also known as chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS).  How long have I had ME?  I developed M.E 2 years ago at the start of September. I was about to start college to study beauty therapy and the day before I had a headache. Ok, no big deal, everyone has headaches. By the evening it had developed into a migraine (you know, when you can’t stand the light, or sounds, and you feel like you’re going to throw up). I didn’t think too much of it and hoped it would be gone by the morning. Well, it didn’t go. In fact, I had that same migraine constantly for 6 months straight.  What did you do?  I got on with it. I started college the next day, and I attended every day I was supposed to until I couldn’t handle it anymore, which was Christmas 2016.  What ...

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The last two days have been challenging cognitively, trying to do something that should be straightforward and easy has proven to be otherwise. All I wanted to do was to get a better phone contract as my iPhone has a faulty battery and I’m sick of Apple, the system takes up over half of the storage on my iPhone and iPad, so I wanted to make a switch to Android, but it was so difficult to do. 

I’m not good at being assertive or haggling for a deal, which is something Denys is good at, he got £8 off my previous contract. This time was different and EE made it incredibly difficult, it meant I spent an hour in a phone shop trying to figure out what had happened and understand why I couldn’t walk away with my new phone. There was a lot of jargon and very confusing suggestions and directions which made my brain hurt. I really struggled to follow what was happening and to make the decision that felt right. Thankfully, the lady helping me was more than willing to go over it again and again until I understood. I came away empty handed, with a headache and a whole load of instructions. 

We went back the following day and we managed to get things sorted out and I came away with a better deal and £10 for all the trouble. 

I have been on the verge of sensory overload for the last few days, I gave in today and went to bed to decompress and nap and it really helped. I think I’ll spend the next few days getting to know my way around my new phone and resting mentally, as well as physically. 

Thanks for reading. 
That ME Girl


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