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Hey there, welcome to my blog. My name is Sian, I’m 28, I live in Scotland and I have a chronic illness called M.E.  What is M.E.? M.E stands for myalgic encephalomyelitis. It is also known as chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS).  How long have I had ME?  I developed M.E 2 years ago at the start of September. I was about to start college to study beauty therapy and the day before I had a headache. Ok, no big deal, everyone has headaches. By the evening it had developed into a migraine (you know, when you can’t stand the light, or sounds, and you feel like you’re going to throw up). I didn’t think too much of it and hoped it would be gone by the morning. Well, it didn’t go. In fact, I had that same migraine constantly for 6 months straight.  What did you do?  I got on with it. I started college the next day, and I attended every day I was supposed to until I couldn’t handle it anymore, which was Christmas 2016.  What ...

Dysphagia, Love CBD and Indica

I've recently had problems with swallowing; I can be eating or drinking and suddenly my body forgets how to swallow.

I have been experiencing this late at night for a few months, but last week it leaked into the day, too. All three meals for two days were a real struggle. We use around fifty pairs of muscles and nerves to swallow, and it's mostly just an automatic thing, except for me it wasn't. I would try to initiate the swallow movement, but the food/drink wouldn't go down, and it would also block off my air supply, so I was unable to breathe. I would also not be able to swallow saliva.

We went to see a GP as it was really distressing and I was becoming scared to eat, everytime I tried it would feel like my heart was in a vice, and that I was not going to be able to breathe again. I then started to have anxiety about eating or drinking anything, and I kept breaking down crying. 

My GP has sent a referral to the upper GI (gastrointestinal) clinic in the hope that they can find the cause for what is happening. I'm relieved to say that the daytime difficulties have gone, I am able to eat with no anxiety, and I'm no longer choking. I am, however, still having the problem at night when I am in bed, so I will wait to see the GI doctors. 


I have wanted to try the indica strain of CBD oil for some time as it is meant to have a calming effect, it can ease anxiety and help with sleep problems. I have posted about CBD oil previously, and which companies I have tried, and Love CBD was one of them. They are the only company I can find that sell an indica vape, so contacted them to ask if they have any current offers, or if there will be one approaching, they replied and offered me a 20% off voucher for any of their products. I had mentioned that their 250mg spray hadn't had any effect on me, and so they offered to send me a bottle of 250mg indica e-liquid worth £19.99 for free! I didn't expect this at all, so I was surprised, but graciously accepted.

The next day a parcel arrived from Love CBD. Sadly, they had sent me the wrong product; it was a bottle of their 250mg oil which I had previously tried. I emailed to inform them of the mistake and offered to send it back, but they said I could keep it as a gift, or pass it on to someone, and that the e-liquid would be with me the following day. I have passed the oil on to someone else with M.E. in the hope that it may help them. 


I have used the CBD three nights in a row, and there has been a massive improvement. I've gone from not sleeping until 2/3am, to falling asleep around midnight. I use the vape just before I go to bed, and it gently relaxes you and you can feel your muscles unwinding. About an hour later I start to feel tired and begin yawning (which hasn't happened in months) and I slip into a deep, but peaceful sleep. I didn't wake up today until after 9am. 

It holds up against anxiety, too. I had an episode of anxiety this evening, and having taken a puff of CBD, I feel calmer and more relaxed. 

You only have to have one or two inhalations of the CBD for it to work, so the bottle will last for quite some time. The next product of theirs that I want to try is their sativa CBD vape, as this is supposed to be invigorating and gives you an energy boost. 

Tonight, I'm going to try using the vape and no sleeping tablets to see how it holds up, but at the moment, I am thrilled with the results, and will be recommending it to everyone who has trouble sleeping or suffers with anxiety. I have doubted the claims of CBD being a 'miracle cure' due to the products I had tried having no effect on me, but I believe that is because the dose was too low, but I'm not willing to spend more money on something that might, or might not work. 

For now, I am very happy with Love CBD's customer service, and their indica CBD really works! You can find the indica vape that I am using here

Thanks for reading.  
That ME Girl 

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