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Hey there, welcome to my blog. My name is Sian, I’m 28, I live in Scotland and I have a chronic illness called M.E.  What is M.E.? M.E stands for myalgic encephalomyelitis. It is also known as chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS).  How long have I had ME?  I developed M.E 2 years ago at the start of September. I was about to start college to study beauty therapy and the day before I had a headache. Ok, no big deal, everyone has headaches. By the evening it had developed into a migraine (you know, when you can’t stand the light, or sounds, and you feel like you’re going to throw up). I didn’t think too much of it and hoped it would be gone by the morning. Well, it didn’t go. In fact, I had that same migraine constantly for 6 months straight.  What did you do?  I got on with it. I started college the next day, and I attended every day I was supposed to until I couldn’t handle it anymore, which was Christmas 2016.  What ...
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Bad Night

It doesn't make any sense that I've had a really busy few days (even weeks), yet my sleep is worse - how is that possible? 



It's now coming up to 5am on Thursday morning and I haven't had a wink of sleep all night. I can barely keep my eyes open during the day, especially over the last two pretty busy weeks, and then at night I can't sleep. It hasn't been this bad for a while though, it's rare I don't sleep at all. It means I'm faced with the dilemma of just staying up and going to spend the last day with Denys and his family, or I stay at home feeling sorry for myself and try to sleep. There's not really a win-win here. 




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